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Surviving Mt. Pulag! :)

2012-01-09T07:03:00.000-08:00

When friends asked me to join a friendship climb at Mt. Pulag, I was kind of hesitant at first.

Reasons:

1. I only experienced mountain climbing at Mt. Makiling. It was nine years ago. It was not a good experience.

2. Mt. Pulag is 2922 meters above sea level. (wtf?!)

3. Temperature goes down to 5 degrees celsius (mahina ako sa lamig).

4. I am not fit to walk for long hours. (sedentary lifestyle that is)

But then, peer pressure prevailed. I signed up and paid a thousand bucks as deposit.

January 6-8 is the scheduled dates of climb to Pulag.

I had a hard time preparing for the trip since I don't have clothes or hiking equipment to bring with. I realized that my college blocmate used to climb, so I immediately bbm her and borrowed some things that will help me with the climb (Thanks che!!! ILY and get well soon!). Apart from the hiking gears she lent me, Che gave me a lot of helpful tips. :)

at Victory Liner in Sampaloc, Manila

We left Sampaloc Terminal at exactly 11PM, January 6, 2012.

With Teej and Some, getting really excited sa Climb. (sa bus na ito)

We arrived in Baguio at around 5AM. It was very cold and I have to wear my down jacket and gloves as we took off from the bus...

On our way to DENR. Stop-over lang. This gave us a view of the Binga Dam.

At Ambuklao dam which supports a hydroelectric plant in the mountains of Bokod, Benguet province of Philippines.

Hanging bridge

At DENR. We have to register and attend an orientation for hikers.

Kuya Mong gives Ms. Emerita Albas, DENR Mt. Pulag a certificate of appreciation for job well done :)

At the rangers camp eating lunch :)

ayan na! and the climb starts :) This is a fantastic view so I can't afford to miss this.

trail to Camp 1

Pagod. Have to take a rest before pushing through Camp 2 :)

Finally! Camp Site 2! :) 5pm, January 7.

I wasn't able to take pictures of our camping. No batt and it was too cold to go outside. When we reached Camp Site 2, we immediately set up our tents. I asked Ate Nora and Kuya Rod if I can join them in their tent. I took a nap and woke up at 6pm because it was bitterly cold. My feet and hands were wet and cold. It was raining in Mt. Pulag. Water got inside our tent due to the bad weather. We have to put our things inside plastic bags. My sleeping bag and rain gear were all wet due to the moist and water getting inside the tent. We tried to warm ourselves by rubbing eficascent oil in our hands and feet and stuck with each other. It rained every once in a while during the night. I wasn't able to sleep soundly and felt like the world will end soon (haha). Then, it's frustrating that due to bad weather we can't climb to Mt. Pulag's summit early in the morning. I can't see the sun rise and the beauty of the clouds. :( I was almost there but it pains me that I can't go.

But as the saying goes, there's a rainbow always after the rain. :) We woke up to a beautiful morning, full of positivity!

All Smiles! It's a beautiful morning! preparing to pack up and go down :)

Hot soup c/o Kuya onin! :) Breakie muna before going down.

YUM! :)

Friends from PhilStar and Aficionado. Shino and Kuya Mong :)

Tents at Camp 2

After packing up, we started going down. It was easier since we hired porters to carry our bags.

Picture muna and rest sa gitna ng pagbaba :)

The boys as we reached the Rangers Camp! Success! :)

We headed off to Ate Gina's Place. Lunch time and Ligo time for all of us. Ate Gina prepated lunch for everyone for as low as 60 pesos per person. Pinikpikan is great, even the rice she prepared! Happy Tummy kaming lahat.

Meal prepared by Ate Gina for us :) Pinikpikan, rice, itlog na maalat and inihaw na liempo. YUM! Happy tummy for 60. Unlimited rice.

Then, we had to get our certificates from DENR Mt. Pulag. We also bought souvenir items from there. Magnets, bonnets, and of course shirts! :)

At the DENR office.

Hiker left their IDs, call cards, etc. as remembrance in the DENR office.

These are tarpaulins from groups of hikers displayed at the DENR.

My trekking shoes after the hike. Will be using it for the next hikes!! :)

We traveled back to Baguio for 3 hours. I wish I experienced riding off a jeepney via top load, but manong said it was not advisable.

At exactly 5:13 PM, we arrived at Victory Liner Bus Terminal in Baguio City. We immediately took an FX to the marketplace to buy pasalubong because we needed to get back to the terminal before 7pm. Bought some goodies, 6 for 100.

Sweets and treats from Baguio City!

Finally, we are headed home via Victory Liner (bus with Wi-Fi and outlet for charging)

Excited to go home!

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All in all, my experience in Mt. Pulag may not be as great as the ones I had when I'm in vacation. The bitterly cold weather plus the rain is a challenge. I have to wear 3 shirts, a longsleeve top, fleece jacket, down jacket, raingear, gloves, 2 bonnets, cycling shorts, tights, jogging pants, and 3 pairs of socks and it seems like these weren't enough. When it rained during the night time, it was the longest night I ever experienced in my life. You would often hear me say, "Kelan ba ito matatapos?" "dapat nasa mm ako at naka-duty, bakit ba ako andito?" "alas-nueve pa lang?" "alas diyes pa lang? tagal pa..." But when the morning has broken, I felt like God is good He let me experience that moment. After the rain, after the cold, He would still give me the sun and let me see the beauty He has created. Even if I wasn't able to see the clouds from the summit, I endlessly thank God for the opportunity to see His creation with great friends. Now, I have found my reason to climb. :)

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Some helpful tips before you climb:

If you are planning to climb, you need to contact Ms. Emerita Albas, DENR Mt. Pulag National Park Superintendent for your hiking plans weeks before the climb. This is so she can arrange transportation and mountain guide and other important matters. Contact info: 09196315402 or 09291668864 (DENR Ambangeg Office) and (074) 444 2720.

Allocate money for hiking equipment and winter wear. Since the temperature in Pulag can go down to as low as 3 degrees Celsius, it is best to invest on thermal gloves and gloves, fleece jacket, down jacket, waterproof jackets, trekking shoes, equipment like water bottle, sleeping bags, headlamps, etc. You can scout for winter clothes even shoes from Ukay-Ukay. I bought my down jacket (it's pink and I love it) for 350 pesos only. Try visiting the Ukay-Ukay located in front of Trinoma in Quezon City. They have a wide collection of jackets you can choose from. Prices range from 200 to 600.

If you want to experience Ate Gina's Pinikpikan and grilled liempo with unlimited rice at 60 pesos, you can contact her at 09198169234 or email her at epegenia_08@gmail.com. You can make arrangements with Ate Gina if you wish to eat lunch at her place on your way to the Ranger Station.

Don't forget to bring personal trail foods like energy bars, chocolate drink, chocolates, etc.

It's advisable to pre-climb before trekking Mt. Pulag. Or if not, at least warm up your muscles by running every morning or do some cardio workout. It will help you with your stamina and strength as you climb Luzon's highest peak.

As for your transportation to Baguio, try Victory Liner for comfortable seats and Wi-Fi buses. Fares are at 455 one way. You can look at their trip schedules here: http://www.victoryliner.com/schedules/ and go here for the contact numbers: http://www.victoryliner.com/contact-us/

And of course, as Kuya Mong said don't forget to bring Happy Disposition, An Attitude of Gratitude, and Sense of Adventure! Happy Climbing! ;)

2011-04-19T10:04:00.001-07:00

Yesterday, I was optimistic and I felt like everything's going well...

Today, I was a bit nostalgic.. I don't know if I'll hate myself for this, but then I realized why should I?

It's true that I remember everything...

those sunny mornings when I have to use the sun to get closer to you (coz I know you'll be holding the umbrella for me when I could just use my sunglasses)...
those drinking sessions when you've become soo familiar with what I want... a few bottles of red horse and any food that has squid on it.
the moments you would "take care" of me when I can't walk up straight and I drank too much.
the times you would deliver the punch line wrong... I'll make face and roll my eyeballs because I don't know how to hold back my laughter. (sa sobrang kakornihan)
the time you were experiencing terrible toothache and I would constantly call my sister to ask for effective pain reliever or what you should do so you won't feel the pain again... but after drinking those pain relievers you would tell me you still haven't visited the dentist yet. I would scold you for not doing so because you keep on complaining that occassionally, you're tooth would hurt...
that night when I noticed that you're not okay, you told us you don't want to eat... but I felt that it would be better if I'll buy you something to eat, since that's the least I could do to make you feel better...
that hug, which I don't know how long it lasted, but made my world stop and made me feel that we've seized the distance between us...

Yes, these are moments that I can't forget... but these are also the moments that have become memories...

Memories that come crashing through... but contrary to the lyrics of a famous song, I CAN GO ON WITHOUT YOU...

Yes, I opened myself to someone like you... I trusted you because I thought you will be worth it... I expected a lot...

Whenever I see you then, my heart would feel like it's going to burst with pain... It became so hard for me to breathe...

Those were the times I would just cry... because that's the only thing I could do... I was thinking that you were also facing your own dilemma and it's selfish of me to bother you with these stupid feelings.

What hurt me the most was... with you, everything's normal... with you, you never care even if you already knew what I am going through...

That was the time I stopped thinking about you.. what you are going through.. or if you were also in pain... I started to pick up the pieces... I started to put things back the way they used to be... that was the time I realized that I have cared so much for the people who don't even care...

I tried to hold on a couple of times... maybe I was wrong.. or maybe I was reacting too much... or maybe just maybe...

the pain was excruciating I can't even get up from bed nor report to work nor wanted to comb my hair...

but I woke up one morning and just realized that I couldn't hold on to the memories we had... nor to the words you said...

after spending some "me" time, I've realized a lot of things...

I was hurting because I can't let go... I was hurting because I can't forgive... and I refused to forget...
I can't move on because I can't decide which path I would go... in short, I don't know what I want...
how can I handle difficult situations when I don't have that close relationship with God
PRIDE gets in the way always.
I'm choosing friendship, but now.. I can't do it yet... because there's still love...

I can't hold on to those memories anymore... but we can make better memories without expectations... and with pure friendship... but now, it's hard to do... it's better to deal with our own issues this way than enjoy and make me expect some more...

we can be GOOD FRIENDS, and not meant to be MORE THAN THAT =)

The Resurrection

2011-04-15T08:07:00.001-07:00

After two supeeeeeeeeeeer looooooooooooooooong years, I am able to visit my abode... my dwelling place... :)

I feel like I'm finally home. =)

I don't know how to keep up with the past two years... all I know is that the eccarific who will be blogging here is not the same eccarific who blogged way back. But, the passion and enthusiasm to share with you my thoughts is still there... time hasn't cooled the flame.

and I am embracing the next days with optimism.

answer for that question-for-yourself question in Bolinao

2011-04-15T07:47:00.001-07:00

While there are a lot of people who are optimistic on finding the right one so that they can be taken cared of, there are few who push people away from their lives...

What are the possible reasons for this?

-- there are people who find it difficult to open their hearts up due to past experiences that have hurt them.

-- there are people who are afraid of opening up then finally opened up but betrayed.

-- too much stubborness, too much independence, too much self-reliance, too much pride.

-- fear of rejection and failure.

Finally, that question-for-yourself question in Bolinao has been answered...

:(

2009-02-05T03:04:00.000-08:00

if this is a nightmare, can you please wake me up?
it's been exactly 3 weeks since you left, and you never gave me a real reason.
but as days passed by, slowly, it has become clear to me. :(
and as it becomes clear to me, it begins to hurt like hell. and the pain is excruciating (and unbearable)
good thing, i can still sleep. For when I sleep, I am able to rest my heart and mind from the pain.
but when my sleep gets deeper, you'll suddenly appear in my dreams, peacefulness turns to chaos. my heart begins to beat twice as normal, and my mind starts to dismantle. and in a few minutes, my world drifts apart. :(

but what can i do? if you are happy right now? if you are doing okay? if you're at your best?
how can i take that away from you?
I'd rather just stay here and endure the pain.

I know I can live this kind of life, if living it will lead you back to me.
but waiting is a process i never knew would be sooo painful.
I need a lot of patience because a day seems to be a year, a week seems to be a decade, and a month, a century.

dahil kay tonee....

2009-01-09T04:19:00.000-08:00

...sinulat ko ang blog entry na ito.

ang unfair talaga ng buhay. matagal ko ng narecognize ang katotohanan na ito.

pero ang tanggapin yun? hindi siguro.

minsan pag nagmahal ka, halos makalimutan mo yung "outside world".

yung nageexist na mundo bukod sa mundong kinreate mo para sa inyong dalawa.

tipong, every minute of everyday, twenty four seven eh magkasama na kayo.

At ikaw, halos malimutan mo na ang nanay mo, ang tatay mo, mga kapatid mo, mga kaibigan mo, kahit nga minsan ang acads mo. nakakasira talaga ng buhay sa "outside world" ang pagjojowa. ang drama mo: handa mong iwan ang lahat para sa kanya. ang "love of my life" mo.

kaso, noong halos iwanan mo ang lahat, kalimutan na may nageexist pa nga pala sa "outside world", saka ka naman iiwan ng "love of my life" mo. Saklap di ba? dito na pumapasok ang pagiging unfair.

pagiging unfair ng jowa mo, na matapos kang paibigin, paniwalain na mas masarap mabuhay kapiling siya sa habambuhay keber ang ibang tao, may sa against all odds pa ang drama nyo, eh bigla kang iiwan sa ere. at ano ang napala mo? wala. wala kang kaibigan, wala kang pamilya. wala ka na rin sa sarili, malamang.

pagiging unfair mo sa outside world, dahil matapos mong iwanan sila noong nahanap mo na ang iyong prince charming, ang knight in shining armor mo, at ngayon eh iniwan ka na nga, bigla mong naaalala na may kaibigan pa pala ako at may pamilya nga pala ako. leche. iiyak iyak ka, at ano? magdedemand ka na makinig sila sa problema mo, ngayong ni ha ni ho walang narinig sa'yo habang maligaya ka pa sa jowa mo.

At huli, unfair ka sa sarili mo. ni hindi ka nagtira, ngayon, wasak ka?

Quits lang.

MORAL LESSON: Wag isantabi ang sarili. Alalahaning di lang jowa umiinog ang mundo, may mga taong kahit anong gawin mong pangiiwan, di mawawala. mas deserve nilang maging center of your universe.

Bakit ko to sinasabi?

KASI DI KO ITO NAGAWA...

Twilight again! geesh!

2008-12-06T06:07:00.000-08:00

I can't believe myself

One day i was ranting about how Twilight affected a lot of people

How it made everyone wanting to be vampires and be loved by them

How people in the jeepney talked about it every so often,

How Candy Magazine (well obviously, Kristen Stewart is this month's cover) got sold out just before December strikes in all the bookstores I've been to.

Oh Gosh!

and then suddenly, i woke up seeing myself reading the books, and oh, I am in the third book actually, in just a week. and i have also watched the film thrice! and the last time i did, I brought Billy with me, and he said, the film's great ah.. may action din naman! ha ha ha

Oh no. this can't be real.

STEPHENIE MEYER's such an.. a.. uhm! shocks! I can't even describe her! geesh!

Enough of Nonsense

2008-12-06T06:06:00.000-08:00

I've been ranting about Twilight these past few days

when I suddenly realized that it's going nonsense...

I might choose a more significant and relevant topic to blog about :)

Have a Cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool morning!!! :)

TWILIGHT UPDATE: I appreciate Stephenie Meyer more.

2008-12-06T06:04:00.000-08:00

Yeah, already watched the film, and i'm in the middle of reading the book. 90th page i think?!

Last night, I bought a DVD [pirated] copy of the film ahahaha! Peace Ninong Edu.

two things that didn't make me feel hinayang on buying pirated instead of heading off to cinemas:

1. I didn't get to encounter people who are sooooooooooo damn madaldal about feeling excited and eager on watching the film.

*ooh! i'm so excited to see the film, and you know, i heard that this film is based on a book nga daw! and, Edward pala was in the pelikula Harry Potter OMG! so on, so forth...*

PS: No *hoooooooooooooooo* when Bella and Edward kissed (wholesome-ly) and no madaldal na katabi, telling aloud what's gonna be the next scene.

2. The pirated DVD costs only 60 bucks. yeah. and when i'll go to SM cinema, they'll charge me 150 pesos i think? and with the 60 bucks, 2 pairs of eyes enjoyed the film ehehe

I have always been a fan of chick flicks.

I admit, I love ~~Twilight~~ Stephenie Meyer

she's a great author, and I appreciate Twilight, not because of Edward Cullen rather, coz of the person behind him and bella and Charlie and Carlisle..

*I have always loved the book version for most of the book-based films i have watched. I love reading, and I appreciate how authors express themselves in the books they are publishing. :)

DON'T GET ME WRONG.

I LOVE HOW MEYER BROGUHT LIFE TO THE CHARACTERS.

PERO, IT'S JUST THAT I'M PISSED OFF WITH HOW SOME PEOPLE REACTED TO THE FILM.

PARANG SUMASAKAY LANG SILA, I DON'T KNOW. HINDI KASI NILA MAAAPPRECIATE YUNG RELEVANCE NG FILM AND EVEN HOW GREAT STEPHENIE IS FOR BRINGING SUCH A GREAT NOVEL, DAHIL THEY ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOO DAMN IN LOVE WITH EDWARD CULLEN.

OH GOSH! THERE'S A LOT MORE OF TWILIGHT THAN EDWARD! GEESH!

what's with Twilight?

2008-12-06T06:00:00.000-08:00

I know a lot of people will hate me because of this entry.

But, hell?! what's with Twilight? ahahaha

I haven't read nor seen the movie, and as day passes by, i have this feeling of getting tired and sick of it, as i hear it everywhere! as in everywhere.

I can even see it in every place I go to. Most especially at Crossing Terminal!!!! shocks! all of those pirated DVDs, bilboards, posters. I'm still contemplating on seeing the film or not. and when i say "seeing the film", it's buying from the crossing terminal DVD vendors, not seeing it in the big screen! ahahaha unless, someone will give me free passes. *wink*

I still don't understand why many people go ga-ga over Edward Cullen, whoever he is. and the girl, what's her name again? [answer: ISABELLA SWAN] ehehehe oh well.

Sensationalism at its peak... geessh! again, what's with Twilight???

PS:

It's pretty cool yet uberly disturbing that everyone wants to be vampires and be loved by a vampire!

I want to read the books and watch the film so as to appreciate it (if I can), and not just because everyone's talking about it and i need to relate with them. This way, I can TRULY APPRECIATE the work of art which Stephenie Meyer wrote.

Ayet-inspired Blog Entry

2008-12-06T05:57:00.000-08:00

Ayessa, a friend from DevCom, posted a blog entry, sort of compilation of great lines from several songs coming from The Script, Keri Hilson, etc.

And I said, might as well do the same instead of posting lyrics of my favorite songs..
soon i'll do some quotes din na nasabi ko before ehehehehe

"I'm feeling all superhuman you did this to me,
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you, superhuman"
-Superhuman, Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson

"I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night"
-Sleeps with butterflies, Tori Amos

"Come and talk to me, what are you waiting for
coz i can see you passing every day
and i'm always wanting more"
-Talk to me, Keri Noble

"Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are"
-Leave out all the rest, Linkin Park

"Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change, but love remains the same"
-Love remains the same, Gavin Rossdale

"I've found out a reason for me, to change who i used to be
A reason to start over new, and the reason is you"
-The Reason, Hoobastank

"it's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard.."
- I will remember you, Sarah McLachlan

"Once I put my coat on
I'm coming out in this all wrong
She's standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I'm in love
I'm in love"

- Never Find, Robert Pattinson

"The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")
On my own.
(My thoughts you can't decode)"

- Decode, Paramore

"I'm not the easiest person to love,
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved
yet you choose to be on the side of me..

...I remembered when nobody cared
BUT YOU..."
- On the side of me, Corrinne May

-MORE TO COME- :)

Random Thoughts About Life and Love

2008-11-24T05:59:00.000-08:00

There’s no such thing as LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.

It’s just all about ATTRACTION. Maybe the first step to FALLING IN LOVE, but not LOVE at all.

How can you say you love this person the time you first saw him/her? Right?
C’mon! Me and Billy, it wasn’t LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT! It took us years before we finally feel that we love each other. Yet, we know that this is for real. Same goes with all of those couples whom I know.

I don’t understand why people set standards (Physical aspect) on who will they love and want to spend the rest of their lives with, as kitty said. For me doing this might lead to ending up loving our own reflections.

The question is, what if you’ll come to realize that you’re falling in love with someone who’s entirely the opposite of your ideals (which happens most of the time)?

I understand, we only deserve the best but, does this “best” necessarily have to do with good looks? With soft and flawless skin? With shiny white pearl teeth? With 36-24-36 figure? All of these will soon fade as we age, but, true love, companionship and acceptance will forever remain the same.

Dessert Island Disc Entry: October 22, 2008

2008-10-23T02:44:00.000-07:00

Dessert Island Disc

Name: “Ecca” Rebecca Joy Billate
Age: 21 (this December)
Graduated 2004, BS Development Communication major in Science Communication in UP Los Baños

Personal Profile:
I don’t know much of myself. And this information is just 10% of who really am I. Most of the time, people would tell that I am a snob. Yeah, I know that, but little do they know that I am a snob until I know them and we’ve been together for a long time. I value friendship so much that I only have few close friends who I consider as “true ones”. But socializing became a habit when I was in highschool. I enjoyed (and enjoying) meeting people, talking with them, going out, etc. So, I really can’t imagine myself being stuck on an island ALONE. But hey, bringing a CD with all the songs that I would like to hear is the best idea ever. That’s why I decided to make this entry for DID (aside from the fact that I was pressured to do so. Hehe peace ate chloe! But, thank you!)

The songs I chose are based on these criteria:

1. I am a girl-turned-woman who believes that every single woman in this world isn’t made to be treated unequally with men. And yeah, no one can put us down. (Kaya deep inside, I know I can survive sa island!)
a. Independent Women – Destiny’s Child
b. Survivor – Destiny’s Child
c. Superwoman – Alicia Keys
d. Fighter – Christina Aguilera

2. Since, I can’t stand the thought of being alone sa isang island, *meaning, all the things that I used to do (like going out with friends, texting, chatting with them, listening to mellow, chatting with the Mellow interactive chatters, etc), kaya I thought of bringing my friends and boyfie with me through songs. Parang kasama ko na rin sila
a. Heaven Sent – Keyshia Cole (so I can bring Hazel (tropicalchicken29), Juliet, Erika, Mareng Laine, Kit, Adam, JM, Mareng Pencil, Pollielpie, Star, Boo, and the rest of the Mellow Interactive Chatters with me sa island)
b. The Reason – Hoobastank (hmm.. when I hear this song sa island, it feels like I’m with my boyfie Billy)
c. Reason for Breathing – Babyface (goes out to Billy as well..)
d. You’re a God – Vertical Horizon (for Mellow DJs and thank you last night Guji. Ahahaha)
e. Miss Independent – Ne-Yo or Friends Forever – Vitamin C (my highschool friends, Jarmee, Ludet, Ava, Jap, Suzane, and my bestfriend Joizee)

3. Lastly, I am seeing this island as an escape and time away for myself, ponder on things which I successfully did and also the things I failed to do. And time away na rin sa mga problema! Wheeew!
a. I’m like a bird – Nelly Furtado
b. Walking away – Craig David
c. Drive – Incubus
d. There’s gotta be (More to life) – Stacie Orrico

*and when there’s no hope for me to get out of the island, I want to hear the song “Natutulog ba ang Diyos! ” Ahaha kidding ate chloe.

Thank You C&C Music Factory!
Had a great time with you yesterday kaso I failed to take pictures with you ehehe

Mellow Tour

2008-09-12T18:11:00.002-07:00

Mellow Tour
FUN! FUN! FUN! :-)
Relationships with D and Marco, Tuesdays and Thursdays 8PM to 12MN
9-11-08

Miss D and Marco on board

and the cassava cake goes to....

Kewl!

Maia with Miss D and Marco

Wacky-wacky-han!

Relationships @ Mellow 94.7

2008-09-12T18:11:00.001-07:00

This is my latest ADDICTION! and when I say ADDICTION, it really means ADDICTION! A-D-D-I-C-T-I-O-N!

Thursday Night isn’t complete without listening to Marco and D’s discussions over Mellow 947 (Sounds Good! Better, Best! hahaha). Ms D’s laughs are sooooooooo nakakadala! ahahaha kakatuwa eh. may "crispy-ness" ang tawa niya ehehehe

On the other hand, nakakatawa din si Marco especially when he Sang Barney’s you love me, etc etc. ahaha! kaboses!

One more thing that is making me love their show (relationships) more is that fact that the listeners are encouraged to participate in their discussion either through YM or text messaging. Ako, i’m using YM para magparticipate.

The situations are also good, some are shocking, at yung iba pa, mapapaisip ka talaga.

Very accomodating and friendly din sina Marco and Miss D, and they are both very good sobraaaaaaaaaa….

As an aspiring DJ and broadcaster, and a person in working in the same industry, I really admire them both. I’m picturing myself na i’ll be able to work with them. Kaaliw talaga sila. For now, I’m really looking forward in meeting them. *fingers crossed*

If you want to feel better after a long day’s work, or you feel that you want to take a break from endless acad demands, RELATIONSHIPS with MARCO AND D is the best way to do it! Thursdays, 8PM to 12MD. :-)

2008-06-10T20:48:00.000-07:00

My Family

2008-06-08T10:21:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, you thought that everything seem to be in their respective places, and that you have nothing to worry about. But suddenly, it turned out to be otherwise.

Yeah. That's what I'm feeling.

I thought everything's alright, but after all, it isn't. it never was.

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2008-06-08T02:06:00.000-07:00

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2008-06-06T09:30:00.000-07:00

I just don't know if I am malas or just sooooooooooo choosy on work.

Passion for teaching remained, and for the past 3 weeks, I have been thinking about the vacancy for a part-time instructor in a State University near our place.

Swak na swak.

This phrase keeps echoing in my head. After resigning from work in QC, I thought that I am blessed by God that He has given me well, a great chance of starting off my career as an instructor, a job that I have realized I wanted. Then I suddenly became an avid fan of this saying, "when a door closes, a window opens," nyahaha.

I decided to text the Dean of the College of Education where I will be applying and she responded immediately:

Please see me tom. 9am.

I was just asking about the specifics of what I will be teaching for the semester, but she insisted on meeting her the next day. Well, wasn't that nice?

That tomorrow came. I chose to wear that dress i have worn in the CDC Testimonial ceremony for the graduating students and my fave black flats. I headed off to the University, only to find out that she was in a meeting and i have to wait for an hour or so. and yes, I have waited for her. But to my surprise, I have found out that some part-time teachers were also waiting for her for a meeting set 9:30AM. And when she came, she had to attend to the part-timers before me of course. But what really set my emotions in fire was that she has mistaken me as a misis, rather than a miss, and that I will be expecting a baby soon. That was,, uhhh! Di ba nya alam ang uso?

Then she asked me to prepare a 15-minute demo for evaluation that will be presented the day after that!!

I just love teaching, so without so much confrontations, I headed off to look for a topic for the demo. I chose to discuss about informative speech, its nature and some practical tips for presentation.

The next day, I chose a better set of clothes, of which I will not be mistaken again as pregnant. I wore slacks and a green top. Headed off to school again and started the demo at 1:30 PM with three deans as my students.

I know I did my best to impress them on my demo, and i expected positive feedback about the presentation, but i was wrong. The only feedback that I have received from them is that i should not be wearing that kind of clothes because it was too distracting.

Iha, distracting ng itsura mo. sobrang sikip ng slacks mo at ang ikli ng blouse mo.

Di tulad sa UP, conservative dito.

Katulad ng suot mo kahapon, napapagkamalan kang buntis. Dapat hindi ka nagsusuot ng mga ganun.

What the?!!! Am i hearing them right???? What's so maikli on my blouse? This is sooo conservative, with sleeves on, and ain't body hugging. on my slacks, yeah this pair is soo masikip because I had this when I was a bit thinner. But, what's wrong with being a former UP student and a first-timer in this kind of work? and you're saying that this is a conservative school contrary to where I came from? In UP, the students are more of liberal than liberated. If you know what I mean.

But i let it pass by since I don't want to be soo shitty and that I am really driven to the idea of taking a step in achieving my life-long dream: to be a teacher.

The next time I reported to her, I was ready to take my schedule for the sem. I had fun subjects like speech communication, technical writing, and business english. However, I was also given subjects that I was hesitant about like teaching of literature and teaching of speaking. I will be handling Ed students and to my surprise, these are major subjects! yes! major subjects! and their future teacher has no idea whatsoever about these courses.

This led me to confusion and anxiety that I may not be the one suitable to teach these. Until i decided to talk to the dean about this matter.

Subukan mo muna
But, when we say subukan, we're risking the students!*on my mind
Hmm, baka po kasi masuffer ang mga estudyante.
Ha? bakit magsa-suffer e di pa nga nagsisimula?!
So, hihintayin nyo pa talagang mangyari un if you can prevent it?*on my mind
Hay naku Ms. Billate, sinisira mo ang pagtingin ko sa'yo!!!

With two other people in that room, with so much unprofessional-ism she had shown me even from the start,

I can't imagine myself working with this person and her superior judging skills and her big mouth for indecent words.

Pero kahit ganon, I am proud that I have a goal of bringing better education to the students...

But I guess, this is how it must end.

Cook vis-a-vis Archulete

2008-05-24T05:30:00.000-07:00

yeah right. I know my latest posts were kind of serious and problematic *nyahaha*.
that's why i created this blog entry to deviate from that seriousness to a lighter side of me. that is, being DC's fan.. :-)

Warning to archie's fans coz this is gonna be a biased (somewhat) *hihi* entry and i don't want to get haters because of this. Though I really tried (as much as I can) to be in between, but DC's talent's so irresistible. Oooops... :-) peace!

let's compare them.. nyahaha.. *mean-y me*

David Archuleta
voice: ahmm.. good. no doubt about it.but it's nakakasawa na (oo, konya na!).
star quality: of quality but too young to look at. parang dapat sa Mickey Mouse Club siya nag-join.. *hihi*
over-all: can be a singing sensation, however, now isn't for him.

David Cook
voice: eats words. nonetheless, his voice's great.
star quality: versatile, original singer. 'nuf said.
over-all: he's a good singer and a trend starter. he can make songs his, making him deserve to be the current American Idol more than anyone else (though Syesha sings good as well).

A new found career path

2008-05-22T22:50:00.000-07:00

I know and you know guys that I have been ranting about the struggles I have been through with regards to finding a job, and when I have found one, I still think I didn't fit in.

And now, as you all know, I'm a certified BUM. B-U-M. BUM.

Aside from being a bum, I am now involved in a somewhat fund-raising project for an NGO, Luntiang Alyansa para sa Bundok Banahaw. How? I just found myself helping in web content writing for their soon-to-be-established website, and I have felt their advocacy on protecting world's biodiversity but in a more specific location, the Mt. Banahaw-San Cristobal Protected Landscape that can be found in Tayabas, Quezon. It's a nice feeling working with people that you know have the same advocacies and principles like you do, and the fact that you are doing this for the sake of that advocacy: protecting the environment.

I haven't been receiving any paycheck for now. But it doesn't really matter (as long as we are fed and provided with things necessary for data gathering) because I am really looking forward in doing something worthwhile while I'm in this stage of weighing things, and bum-ness, and I believe that this experience would have greater value than any paycheck I could receive in the future.

Lessons Learned

2008-05-07T17:15:00.000-07:00

We, as human beings, keep on looking at the bad side of every situation. It's like a small dot on a piece of paper. We keep looking at the dot, overseeing the clean, pure and bigger part of the paper.

Life: it's a journey. In each problem we encounter in this journey, we keep burying ourselves on the problem and not how we can solve it. Moreso, we keep looking on its negative effect, neglecting the thought that problems carry with them good things, even realizations.

These have encouraged me to mull over the situation I'm in right now. Yes, i may not be happy with my work but, looking at it in a clearer and broader perspective, I realized, it has a purpose. It has something to say. Lately, did I think that it has inculcated lessons in life which are vital to my personal growth.

Being in a boring and drowsy working environment led me to the thinking that maybe, I am more of an outgoing person. I want to explore things and learn things through own experiences outside the box. I want to travel and go out, reach out to people, mingle with them, talk with them, even here their problems. I never wanted to be confined here, not forever!

The write-ups which are assigned to me made me see that sharing my knowledge through writing is not enough. Instead, I want to share it in a more direct way, and that's by teaching. I realized that my passion for teaching has not subsided, it has always been with me. But I was too busy looking at things and one of which is the idea of being an ideal DevCom practitioner. I failed to see that teaching can be a great form of development communication.

Finally, I've realized that it is important to always consider things before making decisions. i hope it's not too late.

a straightforward letter

2008-05-06T23:31:00.000-07:00

dear you-know-who-you-are,

I know I should talk to you in person. I've got all the good reasons, but no guts to tell it. You'll think that I am such a coward kiddo, hiding behind her mom's back. Maybe you're right, 'coz you know, I admit it, I'm afraid, so afraid that my uncontrollable mouth might hurt or can make you feel disrespected. I don't want it to happen. I mean it. But, my feelings are strong enough to be withdrawn, and the most gentle way to express these is through this letter.

I just want to quit the job i am in right now. why? first and foremost I am not interested in ICTs or microelectronics. my background on these topics is limited. oh well, got an introductory course in computer science, but that's not enough. you know it does not.

I can feel the overflowing urge of leaving. I don't wanna be confined here forever. I know I can't be a productive person here coz whenever I ride jeepney-MRT-jeepney-jeepney just to get here as early as 7 AM, it's like an agony. Living within the four walls of the room, facing the computer for eight hours or so, doing nothing, or maybe doing something that I never like after all, it's a never-ending experience of depression and suffering. And whenever i recognize this place and the thought that I'm still here, I really wanted to scream my lungs out and immediately get outta here. I know this is not the perfect place for me. I need improvement and discover greater heights in the field that interests me, definitely not here.

I know this is partly my fault because I had a choice. well, I admit it, wrong choice. wrong move.

But honestly, I want to thank you for this shit. Somehow it opened my eyes to see the reality: what I really want to do with my life. And yeah, when I quit and leave, I will begin to take a few steps to fulfilling my dreams.

If you need clarifications, I am just here inside the box you created.

Sincerely,
Ecca

reality check!

2008-05-04T16:52:00.001-07:00

I was eagerly looking for a job. even before submitting the final draft of my undergraduate research. yeah, excited as you may say, but who would not wanted to earn when you know that after graduation you are expected to be independent FINANCIALLY.

As a DevCom graduate, i know and i recognize the fact that we are trained to practice DEVCOM as what it is: Communication for planned social change. I was fascinated with this thought that I sought for jobs which I know i can really be a DEVCOM practitioner, and i did! I have found a job that suites me best, and I know I have been wanting since undergrad years.

I was baptized in the workforce, April 21 even before the commencement exercises was held. I felt that maybe, this is it.

But, I woke up one morning realizing things aren't going my way. I'm stressed whenever I report to work, probably because of long hours of ride from laguna to QC, and even if I've transferred in Mandaluyong, which, as we all know, is a nearer place, stress still gets in my way. This somehow affected my performance and depleting quality of my work.

And as i am browsing through the pages of what I am supposed to read and do a write up about, my head aches, not because I want to procrastinate, but the things I am seeing are so damn unfamiliar.

What happened? This supposed to be a realized dream! But why am I not happy?

Damn.

real world

2008-04-17T09:09:00.000-07:00

It’s finished. After all the sleepless nights caused by DEVC198 and DEVC199, heart pounding recitations in HUM160, brain-draining exams in BIO150, and triceps-sculpting activities in DEVC180, it’s done. I’m out! I can’t believe I’m out!

However, as time passes, I’ve come to realize that it’s not so enjoyable as what I was expecting it to be. When I finally submitted my clearance to the college secretary, I felt that my back has lightened up. at last, I will be free from the forces that have made me look older than my age!! Yehey!

But when I started sending my resume to companies, I started to feel disappointed. I don’t know if I am just too lazy to stretch some bones, or maybe I just don’t know if this career path is for me. I never thought that job hunting was really tedious (and expensive). After all I was a UP student and I thought it would always be easy for me to find a living. Well, I was wrong.

My first job exam and interview: Vista Land in Ortigas.
I applied as a marketing assistant, and well, since I have no background or whatever about marketing and real estate, the interview sucked. I admit it. I made an “aanga-anga” impression on the HR personnel who handled the interview. I don’t know about these stuff so when I was asked,

“what do you think is your edge among the other applicants since you are a fresh graduate?”

“ahmm.. well, I think sending my application even if I am not a marketing major proves my willingness to learn about the industry (I thank you!)”

Crap. I realized, I never wanted to be in marketing. I never wanted to be in a real estate company. It was not my training in devcom. I should find a place most suitable for me.

And I am glad, they never called. *(i was wrong, they did)

Second job exam and interview: DOST ITCU department
I was like, hmmm.. a bit traumatized on my first application in Vista Land, so I decided to browse for R&D institutions in the Philippines to perhaps, try my luck. And well, I think the world conspires with me because there is that one position that I can consider suited to my credentials. Science Research Specialist I. Pretty interesting. I prepared my CV again and submitted it online and presto! I was scheduled for an interview.

We (Joizee and I) headed to DOST central office in Bicutan. Aside from a fun bonding activity we enjoyed, we also shared same sentiments regarding the essay exam and interview. It was brain draining. Awww… at that very moment I feel like drowning myself with filthy water (ahahaha). I want to give up. We spent 300 bucks just to go to this place and, we ended up saying to ourselves, “I don’t think we’ll make it”.

And at that very moment also, I have realized that being a student is more fun than heading off to companies almost every week and be disappointed because you're still NOT landing to the job you have always been wanting, or get the job you wanted but you're UNDERPAID.

This is the REAL WORLD!

i'll be blogging again

2008-04-13T11:44:00.000-07:00

I'll be blogging again
SOON!

2007-12-14T07:18:00.000-08:00

I hate you!
I hate you!
I hate you!

2007-09-20T09:21:00.000-07:00

This night's so unusual...
It creates a different atmosphere.
An atmosphere favorable of recalling the past.
To where I have been
And to what i have become.

You got me wrong if you think that past still haunts me,,
I had choices: whether or not let past haunt me
and I choose the latter.

But I can't help thinking about high school days.
a phase in my life that would never ever fade in my mind.
where first times happened
where enemies are damn cruel
where conservatives reign
where actions are always misunderstood
where laughter is prevalent
where joys and sorrows are shared
where problems are not dealt alone
where every moment counts
where rules are broken
where love is felt at its best
where friends for keeps are met
where cammaraderie developed
where dreams are woven....

To you who made me reminisce my life as a high school student...
To you who loved me.. and still loves me...
To you whom i entrusted my heart...
To you who's happy now....
To you who have said that dreaming is free...
To you who taught me to realize those dreams...

I am grateful...

back again...

2007-08-10T04:18:00.000-07:00

i've lost my blog world for a moment...
well, school's so demanding,
and i need to meet those demands in able to graduate on time,,,

it seems to me that losing my blog world means losing a part of me
exaggerated?
nah-ah
i missed it.
and i'm glad i'm back.,
i hope i could publish better posts
meaningful insights..
greater experiences...

i'm penetrating again the world of blogs...

too bad.. errrr

2007-03-03T08:29:00.000-08:00

naiinis talaga ako..
yun nafi-feel ko ngayon.
buti na lang andito ang dakila kong blog
para makinig sa akin
at maging outlet ko ng sama ng loob.

narealize ko na sadyang may mga taong hindi mo makasundo.
may mga taong sobrang malayo ka.
at hindi kailanman napipilit ang sariling gustuhin ang taong yun.
kahit pa sabihing, we should respect him pa rin kasi blah blah ba-blah blah..
whatever..
hindi naman mataas ang pride ko
at hindi rin naman ako nagagalit agad
unusual lang na ganun ang naramdaman ko.
minsan lang talaga ko magburst out

maybe, may mali rin naman ako.
well, i must admit it na rin siguro
ayoko lang na i-pre-judged ako ng mga tao
yeah i know for a fact na MAY KAMALIAN ako
na, i should not be that "RUDE"
but you know, sometimes, you can't hardly think about what you're doin
when you are guided by your emotions..
emotional akong tao
sensitive ako
hindi ako mabait
prangka lang talaga ako
ayoko ng nakikipagplastikan
at ayokong sinusupress ang emotions ko
coz it may lead into something na mas malala

i recognized that i should have thought of the right response to "that"
but you know, i am not that kinda person eh
don't ever tell me na dapat ilugar ko ang mga bagay bagay...
sana maisip mo din na IKAW din dapat ilugar mo ang mga BAGAY-BAGAY

i just don't understand why POWER and HIERARCHY should always be a BIG DEAL
and don't you dare tell me that i don't respect you. damn.
respect isn't imposed, it must be gained
and you know what? your POSITION always matter to you.
bout HUMAN RELATIONS?
i just don't understand when we always talk about family here
alam ko necessary ang hierarchy pero
don't act na pagmamay-ari mo kaming lahat
kung tinuturing mo kaming "kapamilya"
then, why ganun ang attitude mo smen?
ayoko lang sanang magsisi sa desisyon kong pumasok
dahil lang sa'yo
kasi hindi naman din kaw
ang rason kung bakit ako andito ngayon.

sayang kasi marami pa namang humahanga sa iyo
but upon knowing your real personality
damn. they all started to dislike you...
tsk..tsk..

sa mga taong na-off sa attitude ko,
sorry pero ganun lang talaga ako
nahihirapan akong i-handle ang masyadong MALAKING emotion
at mababaw akong tao. i admit it.
every small issue counts to me.
minsan lang ako magalit
kasi as much as possible
ang way ko talaga is avoidance
hindi na ko nakikipagfriends sa taong baka magalit lang ako

iba-iba tayo.

GLOBE UNLIMITXT

2007-02-05T04:47:00.000-08:00

tsk tsk...

i was surprised when Globe released its new UNLIMITED TEXTING rates... it increased 100%. and ang sabi pa nila more exciting! what the?!!!! mas exciting ba yun? when you have shifting sa unli? anu un? call center? may grave yard shift? tsk..

buong org namin naka-globe.. some of them even switched to globe from smart.. tas ngayon na-disappoint kami kasi akala namen pro-students talaga ang globe.. imagine, ang baba ng rates nila BEFORE...

bakit ganun? wala man lang ding preliminary notice na by Feb. 1 e magsisimula na ang kalbaryo ng texters...

UP CBS 2nd Anniversary

2007-01-19T05:02:00.000-08:00

The UP Community Broadcasters' Society is celebrating its 2nd year anniversary... and i never expected that it will turn out to be an extravagant event. well, for me i really admired my sisses and brods for jobs well done.

it is also great to hear positive feedback from other students and friends about the long-week celebration.

i am so proud of the activities we have, Sidetrip sa Elbi ni Howie leading my list. it is a workshop on documentary writing which will serve as a great help for us, devcom students. this is lead by of course, Howie Severino. the event turned out to be a successful one...

next activity is mag-inarte ka with feelings. this is an on-the-spot radio drama acting. i was not able to attend this because i have to attend to our expert interview in devcom152.

last wednesday we had Bukambibig: a chat with media practitioners. our guest speakers were Sir Louie Tabing of DZMM, DJ tetta of Magic 89.9, Lola Sela Bungangera of DZRH and Sir Bencho of ABS-CBN. we never had these people in one event, but we made it possible. i was overwhelmed that i have known these people in person, body and flesh. they all had a great sharing of what they have gone through until they reach the place they have right now...

later this morning we had Musta ka kakosa? a public service program. this was done in Calamba with the Juvenile delinquents.

and tomorrow, the much-awaited event will be held. Gandingan 2007 a broadcast choice awards. we are expecting a lot of personalities and big names in media like Mike Enriquez, Howie Severino, Boy Abunda, Jiggy Manicad, Martin D., DJ Tetta and more...

This is a great experience not only for me but for the whole UP CBS. there are a lot of things that are not taught in a classroom which i can acquire here. these are experiences, memories, lessons, ideas, opportunities...

2007-01-19T04:45:00.000-08:00

waaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

after trillion years i am blogging again! yeah c'mon!

anyways, been very busy with acads....
and with my one and only organization, The UP Community Broadcasters' Society of course...

there were so many things happened within the span of time i wasn't able to bling blog!

what happened Last December, hmmm...

>> we welcomed four new sisses in UP CBS... cole, moe, afrhill and quennie. congrats sisses! i am so proud of you guys!

>> my dad just got home from Qatar! weee! excited! and celebrated his birthday, christmas and new year with us!

>> me and billy celebrated our 33rd month together. we're eagerly looking for our 3rd anniversary!

>> i just turned 19 last december 24... well, i dont know if i'll be thankful or feel dreadful that another year has been added to my biological age.tsk..

>> christmas party of our compound was held... guess what? i am the host-ess for the night! ehehehe

hmmmm.... i think i've squeezed out my brain thinking all the significant events happened.. wala na akong maisip pa hehehe

2nd Semester has started

2006-11-20T06:49:00.000-08:00

yeap yeap! second sem has started. Nov. 20, 2006.

my first class for today is DEVC102 lecture. This course is about writing for educational media. hmm.. i think i'll quite enjoy the course but i am threatened by storyboard-making. hehe honestly, wala pa akong idea kung ano yung storyboard na yun pero naririnig ko sa ibang tao na medyo matrabaho yun.

nakakainis nga lang kasi hindi ko feel yung ibang tao around me na classmates ko.. we had an issue and parang ngayon hindi ako ready na makasama sila ulit. ngayon pa na nabawasan ng isa ang mga kakampi ko.. hahay... sadness talaga. pero pipilitin ko pa rin for goodness sake. ayoko naman may kaconflict na tao. peace-loving pa rin naman ako kahit papaano. Though in some instances, hindi talaga maiwasan.

SUSPENDED until DEC 14

2006-11-19T05:54:00.000-08:00

SUSPENDED.

I am suspended from UP COMMUNITY BROADCASTERS' SOCIETY. A month long. Why?

It's as simple as not attending the 2-day workshop last Nov.10-11. Sabagay wala naman akong regrets on not attending the workshop. Kasi nahiya lang ako sa mom ko, kakadating lang nya kasi nung Nov. 4 and she didn't allow me to join the workshop. Ok lang sa akin na suspended. NO TAMBAY, NO HANDSHAKE. I think this doesn't matter to me coz I know what I did is justifiable...

First DAY high

2006-11-19T05:42:00.000-08:00

SECOND SEMESTER. Nov. 20, 2006.

I assume that it's gonna be a more stressful semester... 5 devcom subjects ang meron ako ngayon. DEVC80, DEVC70, DEVC151, DEVC152, DEVC102. At meron pang isa, BIO2 (General Biology II). 18 units ako lahat.

Pero pakiramdam ko hindi pa ako handa sa isang bagong semester kahit na three more semesters to go e gagraduate na ako. May hang-over pa ako ng mga panget kong grades last sem. Ewan ko ba napabayaan ko yata. I've been slacking and procrastinating all sem round. Dapat pala hindi na ako nagtaka. LOL

I think I should move on na... Dapat instead na magmukmok ako ngayon e i should do better ngayong semester. Nararamdaman ko nang mabigat ang sem na ito.. Nikakabahan na nga ako eh. Iniisip ko na lang malapit na. Isa pa nanghihinayang talaga ako kasi I should have taken now my pre-thesis course. Bwiset e nakulangan ng isang major subject.

Hayyyyyy....

2006-11-06T22:01:00.000-08:00

while putting my braces...

who's in love?
me and my boyfriend... yikes!

ahmm so happy i've passed STAT1! yebah!

2006-11-04T08:41:00.000-08:00

This is as of October 14, 2006

It was a tiring day, know why? I've visited places again. I've seen people again, we had a meeting early this afternoon. this was about the planned highschool reunion. sadly, only few of my classmates came. me, joizi, zane, ludette, guiller, joy, zyra and my hubby. i was expecting a lot of people but well, yeah, that's reality... indifferences and attitudes. yet, i'm still happy bonding with my kada once again. after the meeting, we headed to our house first to change clothes. afterwards, we went to Jarmee's house. it's been a long time since we last saw her. Nothing has changed among us. only that we are now beginning to be concerned about life's realities. when we were a bit younger, we often talk about non-sense: laugh trips, gossips, crushes and boys, gimmicks, etc. Now, we are like talking about courtship; how was it like in a deeper sense, getting into a serious relationships, marriage, friendship, virginity and life itself. It's very overwhelming to see that each of us grew and matured through time, new environment and distance. However, laugh trips never subsided. They'll always be a part of us.

We just can't help reminiscing the past, and talk about the things that had happened when we were not together. same as the things that haven't change in time.

I've missed my highschool friends. I've missed what we were. I've missed our innocence and childhood. I've missed the way we laughed. I've missed how brat we were. I've missed the things we enjoyed doing. I've missed pizzas. I've missed canteen sessions. I've missed cross stitching. I've missed inuman. I've missed sharing problems with them. I've missed dismissals. I've missed loveteams. I've missed tuksuhan. I've missed chit. I've missed San Nicolas. I've missed Senior. I've missed isaw, dugo, hotdog, shake and ate gi. I've missed B-Girls.

2006-11-04T08:30:00.000-08:00

this is as of October 13, 2006...
i've written it on a piece of paper and this is the only time i can post it here...

I'm happy because i was able to enjoy myself today. how? in spite of STAT1 pre-final exam and PE Culminating Activity, i still managed to appreciate my needs better. i was able to enjoy a blouse which revolutionized me into a preppy girl. after the exam, Joizi (my best bud) and Joyce (my best chat mate ever!) decided to treat me at KFC! hindi lang yon! we talked like for hours. we laughed our lungs out; seeing our esophagus (exaggerated!) we talked about a lot of things like Joizi's boyfriend, our enemies, classmates and of course STAT, though we were really bitter about it. after invading KFC, we went to McDonald's to visit my labidabidubs... i checked if he's okay. he failed to text me before the exam started but eventually, when he saw me, he asked how was the exam. the exam was quite difficult. i guess review sessions really helped students a lot. we attended a review for the pre-final exam, and some of the questions in the review appeared in the exam but in different context. Thanks to Ma'am Tejada, who tutored us that night for providing easier ways on comprehending formulas and ideas.

I'm looking forward to the pre-final exam results. I hope I'll pass the exam. I really worked hard for it.

2006-09-09T20:38:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i had my last update of this bloggie...

mejo boring ang bloggie ko... hehehe

well, gusto ko lang ibuhos lahat ng thoughts, emotions, actions, etc etc ko today...

i don't know kung mabuti bang magtago ng sama ng loob sa isang tao o sabihin sa kanya ng diretso na masama ang loob ko sa kanya at ayokong makipagplastikan.. kahit na matagal na nangyari ung conflict smeng dalawa naiinis pa din ako.. actually dalawa sila and magkauri sila...

siguro tahimik lang talaga akong tao pagdating sa mga ganitong bagay but is doesn't mean na wala lang sken lahat un,,,

yung isa dito sa mga nakaconflict ko e ang kapal ng mukha na nagffeeling close na naman sken after what he said sken na MASAMA ANG UGALI ko dahil lang sa isang kamalian na nagawa ko, how dare him say that to me? e he doesn't even know my real name nor my family. hindi niya ako nakasama ng matagal na panahon to judge me ng ganun... wala KANG KARAPATAN! well, di kita masisisi kasi ang feeling mo talaga, at saka social climber ka... hindi ka lumulugar sa dapat mong lugaran,, kung umasta ka parang napakataas mo, well, bababa ka din sa ginagawa mo.. remember, bilog ang mundo. tama pala ang sinasabi ng ibang tao sa iyo.

2006-08-26T07:02:00.000-07:00

i was so happy.... heheheehehe

well, i got my checklist (my subjects and grades). i earned 75 units so far. i decided to compute for my GWA in able for me to pursue more my studies (well, i guess every student undergo in this stage). i was so happy when i found out that my GWA is 1.6... yey!!! that means running pa ko for laude! yehey! yehey! yehey! kailangan ko pa ng konting aral at ipasa ang STAT1 gogogo ecca! u can do it!

2006-08-25T09:36:00.000-07:00

anothey tiring yet fulfilling day...

i was a self-confessed ignorant a while ago...
maybe you can picture out what did i look like.
well, there are no mornings brighter than FRIDAY mornings, at least for me. i had to wake up 5:30 in the morning to prepare myself for school... however, although i have only one class every friday but unfortunately it's STAT1 lab (the most dreadful experience i had gone through), which i guess most of the students might get envious of my schedule, this day seemed to be unusual..

i headed to the bathroom to take my 20-minute bath: at this early time in the morning, i had realized that their is some kind of "unfinished business" that i have to accomplish before 1pm. oh my god! i was too lazy to do these things before, and i am faced again with my dilemma: CRAMMING.

90 pesos. the only money i saw from my pencil-case-turned-out=wallet. how can i buy materials for my "unfinished business"? sh*t... i had to budget my money for developing (which costed me 42 bucks!), transportation, illustration board, double adhesive, etc. etc. etc. however, it's good that my sister is just a jeep away... yikkkeeess.,. she gave me another 150 pesos. wheeeww! i think i survived. i feel so relieved.

but i was worried about my pictures. they seemed not pleasing for me but when will i reshoot? when the deadline is today... god bless me and my grade..

i feel...

2006-08-24T09:48:00.000-07:00

so sleepy...

gotta wait for my hubby to arrive since i promised him i'll do so even if i have my 7 am class tomorrow. and i hate it. STAT1 lab class... i experience "nosebleed" every fridays... gessshhh.. have to finish printing and designing my project for my photography class... and i was not able to finish transcribing my tape!!!! huhuhuhu

BREAKING FREE

2006-08-24T09:22:00.000-07:00

Troy:
We're soarin', flyin'
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach

Gabriella:
If we're trying
So we're breaking free

Troy:
You know the world can see us
In a way that's different than who we are

Gabriella:
Creating space between us
'Til we're separate hearts

Both:
But your faith it gives me strength
Strength to believe

Chorus #1
Troy:
We're breakin' free
Gabriella:
We're soarin'
Troy:
Flyin'
Both:
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
Troy:
If we're trying
Both:
Yeah, we're breaking free
Troy:
Oh, we're breakin' free
Gabriella:
Ohhhh
Troy:
Can you feel it building
Like a wave the ocean just can’t control
Gabriella:
Connected by a feeling
Ohhh, in our very souls
Both:
Rising 'til it lifts us up
So every one can see

Chorus #2
Troy: We're breakin' free
Gabriella: We're soarin'
Troy: Flyin'
Both:
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
Troy:
If we're trying
Yeah we're breaking free
Gabriella:
Ohhhh runnin'
Troy:
Climbin'
To get to that place
Both:
To be all that we can be
Troy:
Now's the time
Both:
So we're breaking free
Troy:
We're breaking free
Gabriella:
Ohhh, yeah

Troy:
More than hope
More than faith
Gabriella:
This is true
This is fate
And together

Both:
We see it comin'
Troy:
More than you
More than me

Gabriella:
Not a want, but a need
Both:
Both of us breakin' free

Chorus #3
Gabriella: Soarin'
Troy: Flyin'
Both:
There's not a star in heaven
That we can't reach
If we're trying
Troy: Yeah we're breaking free
Gabriella:
Breaking free
Were runnin'
Troy:
Ohhhh, climbin'
Both:
To get to the place
To be all that we can be
Now’s the time
Troy: Now's the time
Gabriella: So we're breaking free
Troy: Ohhh, we're breaking free
Gabriella: Ohhhh

Both:
You know the world can see us
In a way that's different than who we are

first post....

2006-08-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

well, i am blogging again... yes, and I think I'm hooked!

But my mind is disturbed. Brain cells won't function.
*deep breath*
I think I'm preoccupied with "unnecessary" thoughts which I, no matter what I do, still can't let go of.

god bless me. so be it.