Saturday, May 24, 2008
yeah right. I know my latest posts were kind of serious and
problematic *nyahaha*.
that's why i created this blog entry to deviate from that
seriousness to a lighter side of me. that is, being DC's fan.. :-)
Warning to archie's fans coz this is gonna be a
biased (somewhat) *hihi* entry and i don't want to get haters because of this. Though I really tried (as much as I can) to be in between, but DC's talent's so irresistible. Oooops... :-) peace!
let's compare them.. nyahaha..
*mean-y me*
David Archuletavoice: ahmm.. good. no doubt about it.but it's
nakakasawa na (oo, konya na!).
star quality: of quality but too young to look at.
parang dapat sa Mickey Mouse Club
siya nag-join.. *hihi*
over-all: can be a singing sensation, however,
now isn't for him.
David Cook
voice: eats words. nonetheless, his voice's great.
star quality: versatile, original singer. 'nuf said.
over-all: he's a good singer and a
trend starter. he can make songs his, making him deserve to be the current American Idol more than anyone else (though Syesha sings good as well).
Thursday, May 22, 2008
And now, as you all know, I'm a certified BUM. B-U-M. BUM.
Aside from being a bum, I am now involved in a somewhat fund-raising project for an NGO, Luntiang Alyansa para sa Bundok Banahaw. How? I just found myself helping in web content writing for their soon-to-be-established website, and I have felt their advocacy on protecting world's biodiversity but in a more specific location, the Mt. Banahaw-San Cristobal Protected Landscape that can be found in Tayabas, Quezon. It's a nice feeling working with people that you know have the same advocacies and principles like you do, and the fact that you are doing this for the sake of that advocacy: protecting the environment.
I haven't been receiving any paycheck for now. But it doesn't really matter (as long as we are fed and provided with things necessary for data gathering) because I am really looking forward in doing something worthwhile while I'm in this stage of weighing things, and bum-ness, and I believe that this experience would have greater value than any paycheck I could receive in the future.
We, as human beings, keep on looking at the bad side of every situation. It's like a small dot on a piece of paper. We keep looking at the dot, overseeing the clean, pure and bigger part of the paper.
Life: it's a journey. In each problem we encounter in this journey, we keep burying ourselves on the problem and not how we can solve it. Moreso, we keep looking on its negative effect, neglecting the thought that problems carry with them good things, even realizations.
These have encouraged me to mull over the situation I'm in right now. Yes, i may not be happy with my work but, looking at it in a clearer and broader perspective, I realized, it has a purpose. It has something to say. Lately, did I think that it has inculcated lessons in life which are vital to my personal growth.
Being in a boring and drowsy working environment led me to the thinking that maybe, I am more of an outgoing person. I want to explore things and learn things through own experiences outside the box. I want to travel and go out, reach out to people, mingle with them, talk with them, even here their problems. I never wanted to be confined here,
not forever!The write-ups which are assigned to me made me see that sharing my knowledge through writing is not enough. Instead, I want to share it in a more direct way, and that's by teaching. I realized that my passion for teaching has not subsided, it has always been with me. But I was too busy looking at things and one of which is the idea of being an ideal DevCom practitioner. I failed to see that teaching can be a great form of development communication.
Finally, I've realized that it is important to always consider things before making decisions. i hope it's not too late.
Labels: lessons
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
dear
you-know-who-you-are,
I know I should talk to you in person. I've got all the good reasons, but no guts to tell it. You'll think that I am such a coward kiddo, hiding behind her mom's back. Maybe you're right, 'coz you know, I admit it, I'm afraid, so afraid that my uncontrollable mouth might hurt or can make you feel disrespected. I don't want it to happen.
I mean it. But, my feelings are strong enough to be withdrawn, and the most gentle way to express these is through this letter.
I just want to quit the job i am in right now. why? first and foremost I am not interested in ICTs or microelectronics. my background on these topics is limited. oh well, got an introductory course in computer science, but that's not enough.
you know it does not.
I can feel the
overflowing urge of leaving. I don't wanna be confined here forever. I know I can't be a productive person here coz whenever I ride jeepney-MRT-jeepney-jeepney just to get here as early as 7 AM, it's like an agony. Living within the four walls of the room, facing the computer for eight hours or so, doing nothing, or maybe doing something that I never like after all, it's a never-ending experience of depression and suffering. And whenever i recognize this place and the thought that I'm still here, I really wanted to scream my lungs out and immediately get outta here. I know this is not the perfect place for me. I need improvement and discover greater heights in the field that interests me,
definitely not here.
I know this is partly my fault because I had a choice. well, I admit it, wrong choice. wrong move.
But honestly, I want to thank you for this shit. Somehow it opened my eyes to see the reality: what I really want to do with my life. And yeah, when I quit and leave, I will begin to take a few steps to fulfilling my dreams.
If you need clarifications, I am just here inside the box you created.
Sincerely,
Ecca
Sunday, May 04, 2008
I was eagerly looking for a job. even before submitting the final draft of my undergraduate research. yeah, excited as you may say, but who would not wanted to earn when you know that after graduation you are expected to be independent
FINANCIALLY.
As a DevCom graduate, i know and i recognize the fact that we are trained to practice DEVCOM as what it is:
Communication for planned social change. I was fascinated with this thought that I sought for jobs which I know i can really be a DEVCOM practitioner, and i did! I have found a job that suites me best, and I know I have been wanting since undergrad years.
I was baptized in the workforce, April 21 even before the commencement exercises was held. I felt that maybe,
this is it.
But, I woke up one morning realizing things aren't going my way. I'm stressed whenever I report to work, probably because of long hours of ride from laguna to QC, and even if I've transferred in Mandaluyong, which, as we all know, is a nearer place, stress still gets in my way. This somehow affected my performance and depleting quality of my work.
And as i am browsing through the pages of what I am supposed to read and do a write up about, my head aches, not because I want to procrastinate, but the things I am seeing are so damn unfamiliar.
What happened? This supposed to be a realized dream! But why am I not happy?
Damn.
Labels: depression, unhappy, work
