Thursday, February 05, 2009
if this is a nightmare, can you please wake me up?
it's been exactly 3 weeks since you left, and you never gave me a real reason.
but as days passed by, slowly, it has become clear to me. :(
and as it becomes clear to me, it begins to hurt like hell. and the pain is excruciating (and unbearable)
good thing, i can still sleep. For when I sleep, I am able to rest my heart and mind from the pain.
but when my sleep gets deeper, you'll suddenly appear in my dreams, peacefulness turns to chaos. my heart begins to beat twice as normal, and my mind starts to dismantle. and in a few minutes, my world drifts apart. :(
but what can i do? if you are happy right now? if you are doing okay? if you're at your best?
how can i take that away from you?
I'd rather just stay here and endure the pain.
I know I can live this kind of life, if living it will lead you back to me.
but waiting is a process i never knew would be sooo painful.
I need a lot of patience because a day seems to be a year, a week seems to be a decade, and a month, a century.
