Tuesday, June 10, 2008
My Family
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Sometimes, you thought that everything seem to be in their respective places, and that you have nothing to worry about. But suddenly, it turned out to be otherwise.
Yeah. That's what I'm feeling.
I thought everything's alright, but after all, it isn't. it never was.
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Friday, June 06, 2008
I just don't know if I am malas or just sooooooooooo choosy on work.
Passion for teaching remained, and for the past 3 weeks, I have been thinking about the vacancy for a part-time instructor in a State University near our place.
Swak na swak.
This phrase keeps echoing in my head. After resigning from work in QC, I thought that I am blessed by God that He has given me well, a great chance of starting off my career as an instructor, a job that I have realized I wanted. Then I suddenly became an avid fan of this saying, "when a door closes, a window opens," nyahaha.
I decided to text the Dean of the College of Education where I will be applying and she responded immediately:
Please see me tom. 9am.
I was just asking about the specifics of what I will be teaching for the semester, but she insisted on meeting her the next day. Well, wasn't that nice?
That tomorrow came. I chose to wear that dress i have worn in the CDC Testimonial ceremony for the graduating students and my fave black flats. I headed off to the University, only to find out that she was in a meeting and i have to wait for an hour or so. and yes, I have waited for her. But to my surprise, I have found out that some part-time teachers were also waiting for her for a meeting set 9:30AM. And when she came, she had to attend to the part-timers before me of course. But what really set my emotions in fire was that she has mistaken me as a misis, rather than a miss, and that I will be expecting a baby soon. That was,, uhhh! Di ba nya alam ang uso?
Then she asked me to prepare a 15-minute demo for evaluation that will be presented the day after that!!
I just love teaching, so without so much confrontations, I headed off to look for a topic for the demo. I chose to discuss about informative speech, its nature and some practical tips for presentation.
The next day, I chose a better set of clothes, of which I will not be mistaken again as pregnant. I wore slacks and a green top. Headed off to school again and started the demo at 1:30 PM with three deans as my students.
I know I did my best to impress them on my demo, and i expected positive feedback about the presentation, but i was wrong. The only feedback that I have received from them is that i should not be wearing that kind of clothes because it was too distracting.
Iha, distracting ng itsura mo. sobrang sikip ng slacks mo at ang ikli ng blouse mo.
Di tulad sa UP, conservative dito.
Katulad ng suot mo kahapon, napapagkamalan kang buntis. Dapat hindi ka nagsusuot ng mga ganun.
What the?!!! Am i hearing them right???? What's so maikli on my blouse? This is sooo conservative, with sleeves on, and ain't body hugging. on my slacks, yeah this pair is soo masikip because I had this when I was a bit thinner. But, what's wrong with being a former UP student and a first-timer in this kind of work? and you're saying that this is a conservative school contrary to where I came from? In UP, the students are more of liberal than liberated. If you know what I mean.
But i let it pass by since I don't want to be soo shitty and that I am really driven to the idea of taking a step in achieving my life-long dream: to be a teacher.
The next time I reported to her, I was ready to take my schedule for the sem. I had fun subjects like speech communication, technical writing, and business english. However, I was also given subjects that I was hesitant about like teaching of literature and teaching of speaking. I will be handling Ed students and to my surprise, these are major subjects! yes! major subjects! and their future teacher has no idea whatsoever about these courses.
This led me to confusion and anxiety that I may not be the one suitable to teach these. Until i decided to talk to the dean about this matter.
Subukan mo muna
But, when we say subukan, we're risking the students!*on my mind
Hmm, baka po kasi masuffer ang mga estudyante.
Ha? bakit magsa-suffer e di pa nga nagsisimula?!
So, hihintayin nyo pa talagang mangyari un if you can prevent it?*on my mind
Hay naku Ms. Billate, sinisira mo ang pagtingin ko sa'yo!!!
With two other people in that room, with so much unprofessional-ism she had shown me even from the start,
I can't imagine myself working with this person and her superior judging skills and her big mouth for indecent words.
Pero kahit ganon, I am proud that I have a goal of bringing better education to the students...
But I guess, this is how it must end.
